Astrology Realness: This New Moon Wants You Eating Cookies and Feeling Sexy
This Virgo New Moon is one of healing.
Back in late April, I started this new exercise and diet regimen. Initially, I wanted to get myself into good shape for a destination wedding in Mexico. That wasn’t only to look and feel good on the beach, but also because I was officiating the ceremony and needed to look cute in my suit. So I ate and I worked out very strictly for six days a week and then allowed myself a cheat day on Sunday. Though the diet did help me in achieving my goals, it also created this really screwed up mentality. Since I had told myself that Sunday was my only day of food freedom, I would get to it and eat whatever the hell I could get my hands on. And if I couldn’t find my way to the right brunch or bucket of French fries, than I would feel as if I’d failed myself. As if I’d squashed my golden opportunity. Thus, I usually ended the day full but unsatisfied.
I have kept the diet going but, in the last few weeks, something has shifted. I grew tired of beating myself up. I grew tired of allowing food to have so much authority over my feelings (tale as old as time). And I grew tired of wanting a sandwich on a Wednesday afternoon and telling myself “no”. So I’ve slowly found a way to get off the strict regimen. Or more so, I’ve created a new, more balanced one. Yes, I still see Sunday as my cheat day, but I also let myself eat carbs on Tuesday if I want to. I also still work out six days a week, but that is just a necessary tool for my general well being. There’s still a routine, but it doesn’t involve me ever feeling like a failure. And it has helped me to feel healthier as well as gain a stronger relationship with my body and body image. For the first time in my life, I’m eating cookies and feeling sexy. And for me, that’s a personal breakthrough and a miracle…